Castiel can’t sleep.
He rents out a motel room out of habit more than anything else, shrugs off his jacket and lays languid, arms crossed, closes his eyes; waits for the world to taper off.
He can feel the uncomfortable buzz of grace bubbling up on his lips, this strange, foreign substance that doesn’t belong to him, struggling to eject itself from his body. He feels its warm thrum in his fingertips, a sensation he thought he had missed, and viciously counts sheep, mouths psalms until his lips feel as if they should be numb. As if they should be.
Blinking, Castiel opens his eyes. He can discern objects even in the dark, or can rather sense where they are spatially. That had never been a distraction from sleep before now. He curls his fingers into the thin cotton sheets, aching for a spark of sensation, and breathes out slowly. There’s no relief in the exhalation, no feeling like some of the weight in his body is flooding out from his lungs.
So I finally got around to making a video to this song.*high fives self*
Because if a song was “Castiel”, it’s definitely this song.
I’m an angel with a shotgun,
fighting til’ the war’s won,
I don’t care if heaven won’t take me back.
I’ll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
Don’t you know you’re everything I have?
CURRENTLY GETTING A LOT OF VIOLENT REACTIONS FROM PEOPLE WHO TOOK ME SERIOUSLY
I’M SORRY THE WATERMARK MISLED YOU
9x03 “I’m no Angel”
AKA “WOW, HUMANITY SUCKS”
In which I talk a bit about Dean and Cas and the specific tropes their dynamic has been touching on this season.
9.06 coda, I supposed.
If Cas was surprised to see Dean that first time he appeared at Gas-n-Sip to handle the Rita Zien case, imagine how he felt seeing Dean a week later.
Cas was rendered speechless just like the first time. He really hadn’t expect to see Dean so soon, who was grinning at him so hard that the corner of his eyes were crinkling. “Dean? What are you doing here?”
Supernatural writers: take notes
Because 8x07 gave me a shitload of feels and because Dean and Cas just can’t help but fall in love with each other
DEAN, I GET WHY YOU SENT CAS AWAY
SAMMY COMES FIRST
AND EZEKIEL IS HOLDING SAM’S WELFARE FOR RANSOM
BUT PLEASE TELL ME
YOU GAVE HIM CLOTHES, MONEY/PLASTIC, FAKE IDS AND A PACKED LUNCH BEFORE SENDING HIM OFF
ALSO A CELLPHONE
WHERE YOU CALL HIM EVERY NIGHT
AND TEXT HIM EVERY MINUTE
JUST TO YOU KNOW, CHECK UP ON HIM, SEE IF HE’S OKAY (and make sure he doesn’t sleep with anyone
who might turn out to be a monster)
LIKE A GOOD BOYFRIEND
DEAN. PLS TELL ME.
"THAT FACE TOUCHING THING WE DO"